Have You Lied to Yourself?
. . . hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; . . .
It’s not easy coming to terms with your sinfulness. Seeing the beam in your own eye is like coming out of a bad movie and realizing that you were the featured actor/actress. Your part, judging and condemning people. Oh, the pride, in all of it’s corruption protrudes from the realization that you are guilty of being negative, disapproving and judgmental. You have been blinded to your own sin, yet others could not help but see who you really are. The lie you told yourself is finally played out and the truth emerges. You ultimately see the critical, fault-finding spirit that lives in your heart.
When our well kept secret is finally uncovered, things begin to crumble. Because our foundation has been resting upon a rotten core, the supports of a previous arrogance and confidence will crack and then collapse. The safe covering we enjoyed behind our sin is gone. The more we convince ourselves that we’re better than most the more painful the revealing becomes. Who we are is now in plain view for all to see and we must be wholly dependent on His grace.
As we arrive at this level of conviction, we can no longer pretend or make believe. We thought our sin would never come out, but it did. We have been acting like this for years and it has become a practice that seems impossible to stop. We are under some illusion that through mere methods we have the power to change our path from sin to righteousness. True repentance brings our sin to the throne of grace where real mortification takes place.
Psalm 51:1-10 says in part, Have mercy on me, O God, . . . blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, . . . I know my sin is ever before me. Against you only, have I sinned . . . Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Lord, I have sinned against You, I repent!